Love is blind (HIS writing)

My Love mia Bella,

There are so many sayings about love. Love for all intense purposes is a word, is overused by many not knowing what true love is. Love should never be used without meaning. One saying about love came to me in my thoughts the other day “Love is blind”. I thought about this for a good while. In many ways others may see us and state love is blind for us as a couple due to many things like age, countries, distance and a few other things. In reality to others this may be true or viewed by others that is true. However, I believe others view it a certain way like “oh they overcome this due to their love”. To me and for us this never factored in the equation. When I look at you if you lose or gain weight I don’t really see I, I’m blind to it. To me my weight you view the same way. The only thing I care about is your health. When I look at you I only see you. You that is so sexy, sensual and oh so sweet and loving.
Ok, all over the place my love. Let me get back to my point. To me you know it when I look at you that I care and love you so deeply that you provide everything for me and that I want to provide everything to you. To this day and in my heart I believe for the rest of my life I never see any “oh I wish Bella would do this, say that, do that, gain this, lose that”. It is not I’m totally aware or ignore nor you vice versa. But that we see our loved one.
Bella is see my lover, soulmate and true love. Love is not blinding us, it actually makes us see better. It allows us to connect like no other couple; I or we know because we can see each other in a way and light no other can. To us “love is blind” has a meaning very different than any other couple we know. Have you ever looked or stared into blind persons’ eyes? Well, there is virtually no movement in a large part because then cannot see light. The prior receptionist saw a twinkle in your eyes about love and then a deep deep emptiness. The emptiness that can only be turned on and opened with a certain light or certain key. That key or light is us and our love. People do see the same in my eyes. They say there are many things you can hide but the eyes are very telling. The “tell” holds true of us when we are apart we think and yearn so much for us and what each other provides but the eyes tell it all. Let us allow the light to shine bright each and every day by us providing something so simple. Let us simply touch each other our touch and looking at each other is not but simply remarkable.
Here again and again these words have such deeper meanings than others might describe.
I love you Bella. Love you soo much. Love you forever.

Scotty

We do it blindly because we do not see each other.

Home (HIS writing)

To my love, to the person who takes my breath away each and every time when I look at,
The concept of home is interesting. In a funny way I recall the movie we watched together “oh I am home” or something close to that LOL! In all seriousness what is a house or a home. Is it really a physical place? Well for much of my life I would answer yes. No more my love! Home to me is a place I feel happy and at ease, comfortable. I use the word place loosely as the place is not a physical location. Home is any location where and when I am with you! We meet and experience many new places and experiences together. While all of these “trips” and don’t read into the word trip I should state places we visited. The time I saw you at your places in Moscow really disclosed many things for me in regards to home and between us. I know we both very flexible and adoptable and simply just want us no matter where or when. Staying in and dwelling and being together for many days were AWESOME!
Bella home is YOU! Home is US. Home is WE. Home is the feeling we feel with each other. For us it does not matter WHERE and it is NOT a physical location. We make each other complete and happy and overall home is where happiness is. I am certain we each make each other happy without effort and so naturally.

Love you Bella. Love you true love.
You are the best!

The ONE (HIS writing)

The woman who is the one,

The woman who gives all of herself without expecting a return,

The woman who is so beautiful,

The woman who has the amazing inner beauty and a HUGE heart,

The woman who drives me crazy,

The woman who drives me crazy (yes, twice :))

The woman who I yearn for…

The woman who I want to see ASAP…

The woman who makes me smile,

The woman who I want exactly the way she is today,

The woman who can at any moment in anytime and moment can make me smile and feel my heartbeat simply by thinking of her,

The woman who I respect deeply,

The woman who is my true love,

The woman who is my soulmate,

The woman who I am so proud of!

Time is a great Healer

Was looking through my note books left from my studies and discovered some notes of my early writing. It was very interesting because I was writing about some pain I was going through at that time but now I can barely remember anything.

Is it true they say "Time is a great healer"? Or it's just I handled those hard times and decided to bury them in the past and live today?

There are many situations in life when we think we are victims of circumstances, but whatever life flings at us we may not have control over, but we definitely have control over our response to anything happens to us.

We learn from our mistakes and handling something once you state to yourself "Next time I will not do it\or do it differently!" Yes agreed, there are many different ways to handle the same situations, and the results will come out differently and it is the way we can control our life by. The same ingredients make the same kind of salad, but change the ingredients and you get a different one. The hardest thing is to believe that we have choices in the way things will work out, and the consequences of the choices are what heals.

Some people like my grandmother go through a lifetime not being able to find relief from emotional pain because they go through their life without making the changes they need to make to enable them to heal. My gma was hurt many years ago and she still keeps this pain\offence inside that bothers her and affects her health and the relationships with other members of the family. It's sad but until she realizes how powerful our minds are she wouldn’t be released from this pain. What's the most interesting her analysis are perfect and docs cant find a reason to her high blood pressure. The basic thing to accept is that our minds are more powerful than our bodies. Even if we were in a metal container at the bottom of the deepest ocean our minds are still free, and the way we think can affect us in every situation.

I have read in the Shack book God asked Mac "Where do you live Mac - in the past, present or in the future?" And Mac said that Most of the time he lives in the past and also plans something for the future which doesn’t leave him time to live in the present. "As most of the people do" - God stated! And it is true! Most of the people make plans for the future trying to foresee what will happen and be ready for it. But there is no future! There is NOW and TODAY! You can look back at your past but no longer than for a minute and only to remember great times and cherish memories.

People like my gma live in the past and no matter how much time it has been it wouldn't heal them until they make a choice.

And I don’t state it easily! I know sometimes it's easy to be said than to be done. But it is what makes us stronger throughout whole our life and what is called "life experience"!

Happiness is in our hands holding them together with the love ones.

St.Valentine's Day!

I'm blessed to

Have everything I've ever wanted in a man -

A loving heart,

Perfect body and a caring soul,

Person who i respect soo deep!

You are my true love, my

Valentine!

And I

Love you with

Everything i have!

Never can get enough of you!

To be a part of you

I want for the rest of my life!

Need you always and forever,

Everlasting love we have!

Dreams come true one day, they say,

And i want to tell you once again

You are my soulmate, my best friend and a lover!!!

Time is too short

Have you ever been angry at your clock that you don’t have enough time for anything? Have you ever thought about having 25 hrs per day instead of 24 in order to be able to do everything what you wanted to? Have you ever thought about being in many places at a time instead of being in one? Have you ever thought about going back in time and change something or simply do whatever you didn’t have enough time for then back? Have you ever thought about simply sitting and reminiscing what you are doing or what you are here for? Have you ever thought about stopping the time when you are with your love one because this time is so damn short and you know you will have to depart soon again?
Time is a very interesting thing - it goes slow on one hand especially when you wait for something and races the way too fast on the other hand. Look for example at the way we treat time. When we are young we are in hurry to grow up and do things that only adults are allowed to do. But when we do grow up and get all things we wanted to there is a paradox, we don’t want to be in hurry any more, visa versa we want to stop this time sometimes. But the process has been started. Now its not us pushing the time, its time pushes us now. So we have to be in hurry to be able to do as much as we have enough time for. You do day-to-day things like going to\from work, working hard, doing some housework, pleasing the others etc. But you do it almost automatically. You don’t enjoy the process! If you read this while eating your lunch on your lunch break, stop and look at what you eat, where you are and who you are around. Look around and you will see many simple things that can make you happy, make you enjoy your life and make it complete. Don’t let time take away this pleasure! Don’t let time manage you or your life, do manage your time! Yes, it's impossible to have enough time for everything, but we can at the very least enjoy the time we have and use every single minute of it . So when the time passes by we cherish the memories of what we have done during this time.
You know they say "3 main goals of a man are to grow the tree, to build the house and to give a birth to the son". Sounds old school and might sound nowadays like that "To grow up in career, to provide yourself with everything like the house, car etc, and settle a family". And they are a lifetime goals and they used to think he will have enough time to implement them in life. Most of the time he does, but not always. Is there anybody at all who ever thought about main goals of a woman? Of a modern woman who nowadays plays big roles in the career, who drives the cars, builds\maintains the house, who supports the family. Nobody have ever tries to assume. They all used to think that a woman should be able to manage her time the way that she has enough time for everything. But we forgot about the main thing in our lives. While pleasing the others and in chase of getting all the material goods we forgot about our feelings. There cannot be a family without love, there cannot be a success without a support from a loving one. There is a saying you may all know "The beauty will save the world" but I got another saying "Love will save the world"! Without love there is no sense in our lives. And it doesn’t matter how fast the time goes, without love it is senseless anyway. But we all want to not just exist, right? We all want to enjoy our life and live it up! But it's impossible without your true love! And if you got one, I'm really happy for you because I know you take no account of time. I wish it to all!
Now I talk to all women! Hey girls, what's up? What's wrong with you? Stop complaining you don’t have enough time for everything! I know time is too short but try to take as much as you can from what you got. Do NOT try to jump higher than your head is. Are you going to make a revolution? Do NOT try to make men feel weaker than they are simply because you think you can be independent! Then you ask why we need men if we can everything by ourselves. It's not right! We do need them, need their loving and need to love, need their caring and need to take care of someone. That’s what we are here for! You cant earn all money in the world and the happiness is simply not in money. That’s why you don’t have enough time for everything simply because you are going a wrong way, you chose a wrong path. You know we are all humans and our time here is limited. But it doesn’t mean we have to sit and wait for the last day being disable to enjoy our life, to count this time and vent on the lack of it.
So if you didn’t find your true love yet, go for it! Busy with your daily stuff? Sad, you will never hear the birds singing, will never see the sunlight playing on your wall, will never smile on the rainbow after the rain, because only people in love can notice those things and have enough time to enjoy them. Like kids! They don’t track the time and they are happy! And life is beautiful!

Monday night

Hey my love, what's up?
its Monday night
and time to turn off the light.
Drifting away from a single thought of you
Oh baby, miss you, i love you....
Guess what I'd right now use?
To hear your voice sound like blues,
Your breath on my neck like a warm breeze,
Sensual kiss and tight squeeze,
Would fall asleep in your arms,
with intertwined palms.....
Would love you to whisper into my ear
"Baby i love you, i am here".........