What we have

A touch that warms
A touch that gives you goose bumps
A touch that soothes
A touch that.makes you yearn for more
A touch that makes you forgot about the workday
A touch that pleasures beyond belief
A touch that unites us

A true love that is true no matter the miles,
A true love that makes us yearn for each other while apart,
A true love that blows your mind,
A true love that makes us live at the moment and cherish the life,
A true love that is true love of life,
A true love that fills your heart with so much warmth,
A true love that makes you smile by just thinking of each other,
A true love that keeps you up at night,
A true love that makes you as one when together,
A true love that is so powerful and does magic....

What a wonderful day!

What a wonderful day today! And it's so great not only because it's Friday but because I received a letter from my love one! Yes, yes, a written letter! Not email :) I once again realized that I'm the happiest girl alive because I have Him! Thank you for you my love and for your writing! It deserves to be published.

"Hello my love,
There was a very interesting saying at Disney world that stopped me and made me think "Let the memories begin". I thought really hard about this with us, I thought of this with us together, as we physically and separate for your writing. In the end both of us may state we have had amazing memories together. But the challenge is apart but we can be and will be together soon. Sure that is true and important. I took a different view. We live so naturally and connected. We have fun and don't pick an event to start or let the memories begin. Since Disney creates experiences for memories and that is great. However, many live for certain things and their expectations typically get let down. With us we learn, grow, adapt, laugh, pinch each others ass on a daily or weekly basis but in the end we LOVE. We don't want or think of an event to have memories. With this our relationship stays connected and fresh yearning for each other.
I wish you a wonderful day my love!
Love you forever,
Scotty"

Oh my love I love your writings, you put your heart and soul in them. I will never be tired from reading your letters. Now I have plenty of them and sometimes I do reread them to occupy my time while we are apart :) Oh yes we yearn for each other badly but very soon we will be united! i love you with everything I have! You made my day!

Love is blind (HIS writing)

My Love mia Bella,

There are so many sayings about love. Love for all intense purposes is a word, is overused by many not knowing what true love is. Love should never be used without meaning. One saying about love came to me in my thoughts the other day “Love is blind”. I thought about this for a good while. In many ways others may see us and state love is blind for us as a couple due to many things like age, countries, distance and a few other things. In reality to others this may be true or viewed by others that is true. However, I believe others view it a certain way like “oh they overcome this due to their love”. To me and for us this never factored in the equation. When I look at you if you lose or gain weight I don’t really see I, I’m blind to it. To me my weight you view the same way. The only thing I care about is your health. When I look at you I only see you. You that is so sexy, sensual and oh so sweet and loving.
Ok, all over the place my love. Let me get back to my point. To me you know it when I look at you that I care and love you so deeply that you provide everything for me and that I want to provide everything to you. To this day and in my heart I believe for the rest of my life I never see any “oh I wish Bella would do this, say that, do that, gain this, lose that”. It is not I’m totally aware or ignore nor you vice versa. But that we see our loved one.
Bella is see my lover, soulmate and true love. Love is not blinding us, it actually makes us see better. It allows us to connect like no other couple; I or we know because we can see each other in a way and light no other can. To us “love is blind” has a meaning very different than any other couple we know. Have you ever looked or stared into blind persons’ eyes? Well, there is virtually no movement in a large part because then cannot see light. The prior receptionist saw a twinkle in your eyes about love and then a deep deep emptiness. The emptiness that can only be turned on and opened with a certain light or certain key. That key or light is us and our love. People do see the same in my eyes. They say there are many things you can hide but the eyes are very telling. The “tell” holds true of us when we are apart we think and yearn so much for us and what each other provides but the eyes tell it all. Let us allow the light to shine bright each and every day by us providing something so simple. Let us simply touch each other our touch and looking at each other is not but simply remarkable.
Here again and again these words have such deeper meanings than others might describe.
I love you Bella. Love you soo much. Love you forever.

Scotty

We do it blindly because we do not see each other.

Home (HIS writing)

To my love, to the person who takes my breath away each and every time when I look at,
The concept of home is interesting. In a funny way I recall the movie we watched together “oh I am home” or something close to that LOL! In all seriousness what is a house or a home. Is it really a physical place? Well for much of my life I would answer yes. No more my love! Home to me is a place I feel happy and at ease, comfortable. I use the word place loosely as the place is not a physical location. Home is any location where and when I am with you! We meet and experience many new places and experiences together. While all of these “trips” and don’t read into the word trip I should state places we visited. The time I saw you at your places in Moscow really disclosed many things for me in regards to home and between us. I know we both very flexible and adoptable and simply just want us no matter where or when. Staying in and dwelling and being together for many days were AWESOME!
Bella home is YOU! Home is US. Home is WE. Home is the feeling we feel with each other. For us it does not matter WHERE and it is NOT a physical location. We make each other complete and happy and overall home is where happiness is. I am certain we each make each other happy without effort and so naturally.

Love you Bella. Love you true love.
You are the best!

The ONE (HIS writing)

The woman who is the one,

The woman who gives all of herself without expecting a return,

The woman who is so beautiful,

The woman who has the amazing inner beauty and a HUGE heart,

The woman who drives me crazy,

The woman who drives me crazy (yes, twice :))

The woman who I yearn for…

The woman who I want to see ASAP…

The woman who makes me smile,

The woman who I want exactly the way she is today,

The woman who can at any moment in anytime and moment can make me smile and feel my heartbeat simply by thinking of her,

The woman who I respect deeply,

The woman who is my true love,

The woman who is my soulmate,

The woman who I am so proud of!

Time is a great Healer

Was looking through my note books left from my studies and discovered some notes of my early writing. It was very interesting because I was writing about some pain I was going through at that time but now I can barely remember anything.

Is it true they say "Time is a great healer"? Or it's just I handled those hard times and decided to bury them in the past and live today?

There are many situations in life when we think we are victims of circumstances, but whatever life flings at us we may not have control over, but we definitely have control over our response to anything happens to us.

We learn from our mistakes and handling something once you state to yourself "Next time I will not do it\or do it differently!" Yes agreed, there are many different ways to handle the same situations, and the results will come out differently and it is the way we can control our life by. The same ingredients make the same kind of salad, but change the ingredients and you get a different one. The hardest thing is to believe that we have choices in the way things will work out, and the consequences of the choices are what heals.

Some people like my grandmother go through a lifetime not being able to find relief from emotional pain because they go through their life without making the changes they need to make to enable them to heal. My gma was hurt many years ago and she still keeps this pain\offence inside that bothers her and affects her health and the relationships with other members of the family. It's sad but until she realizes how powerful our minds are she wouldn’t be released from this pain. What's the most interesting her analysis are perfect and docs cant find a reason to her high blood pressure. The basic thing to accept is that our minds are more powerful than our bodies. Even if we were in a metal container at the bottom of the deepest ocean our minds are still free, and the way we think can affect us in every situation.

I have read in the Shack book God asked Mac "Where do you live Mac - in the past, present or in the future?" And Mac said that Most of the time he lives in the past and also plans something for the future which doesn’t leave him time to live in the present. "As most of the people do" - God stated! And it is true! Most of the people make plans for the future trying to foresee what will happen and be ready for it. But there is no future! There is NOW and TODAY! You can look back at your past but no longer than for a minute and only to remember great times and cherish memories.

People like my gma live in the past and no matter how much time it has been it wouldn't heal them until they make a choice.

And I don’t state it easily! I know sometimes it's easy to be said than to be done. But it is what makes us stronger throughout whole our life and what is called "life experience"!

Happiness is in our hands holding them together with the love ones.

St.Valentine's Day!

I'm blessed to

Have everything I've ever wanted in a man -

A loving heart,

Perfect body and a caring soul,

Person who i respect soo deep!

You are my true love, my

Valentine!

And I

Love you with

Everything i have!

Never can get enough of you!

To be a part of you

I want for the rest of my life!

Need you always and forever,

Everlasting love we have!

Dreams come true one day, they say,

And i want to tell you once again

You are my soulmate, my best friend and a lover!!!